At the thick end of night all are sleeping not me for the black thoughts creep in, not invited in nor welcome here doesn't stop the monsters my dear, they all dance in of different flavours one constant all seek my graced favour.
I'm tired.
It may be fear dancing and leaping maybe memory keeps me from sleeping, perhaps it's shame leading dancers play laughing to beat back at my sunnier day or a blonded man blue iced eyes tithing knots throwing knives & no nice thing.
I'm tired.
It's been 30 plus years stuck in here playing dodgem cars with all these fears smash one over hit one to the side, just for another to hit on the fly collide, one more trip on the helter skelter slide.
I'm tired.
So weary tears stain cheeks eyes bleary, will it soon end or stay this way forever strive to untie the bond break the tether but the monsters ha! they know me better than any close friend, family or lover so I'm stuck in here wed to this terror.
I'm tired.
As the clock slows beats me backwards again I paint on the smile feign the act I'm ok to any friend say hey hey much easier less ugly to just pretend rather than confess admit to say I'm unable to unbend the bend straighten the wires and unrip so to interrupt the continuum slip.
I'm tired.
As thick pushes through into pointy end of dissolving night with pale washed out insipid weak tea pre-dawn light still no relent no peace no love no joy no relief in sight I wonder if it'll ever sever or never again going to be alright.