I had reached a place where, I had not so much, given up on love, but was used to being alone, I've never minded my own company, loneliness is not something I've really suffered from. So, I was ok with it, even though, having dipped my toes back in the sea of the possibility of being aligned with another, and had my heart, take a hit after being ghosted, it reaffirmed for me (or so I thought) that perhaps it was better to he alone...then, ironically, through the pain, I met 'someone', neither of us knowing, when he reached out to me, sensing my pain, my sadness, that we would discover, uncover, a connection and bond so deep, that it often hurts deeply just to simply think about touching him, him touching me, holding me, being with him... I never really prescribed yo the whole 'there is one person out there made especially to fit perfectly with you', but I have to reassess that now...after 3 months my/our feelings still grow daily for each other, surprising us both in the most wonderful ways.  You know this is for you my darling honey bee, I know you will read this, I Love you M, more than I thought it was possible to love another, you move me deeply in every way, physically, emotionally, mentally.  You make me so happy it hurts...happy 3 month anniversary baby **