Is it really hard to make things fine like the way it used to be?

Body was glued in the mattress for an hour and a half; longing for something extremely soft huggable stuff to be gripped just to ease the broken piece inside am feeling right now. It can help ease the pain for a while, but it wouldn't be the perfect key to make the heart totally fine and comfy. Tears started to fall into sheet and pillow covers while reminiscing those memories shared in each other's priceless smiles. I meditated thoughts in my mind if how can we take back time as exciting as how we wanted it to be felt. I'm sorry if we hurt each other in the unexpected moment. Because of the suddenness feeling I got when I heard that word from your lips, still can't believe it happens between us last night. It is really hard to make things fine like the way it used to be. We need deep talks, understanding, patience, acceptance, and sincere emotions to clarify everything. I wanted to smile like everything's gonna be better anytime; as if everything's always just in the same way, but it's killing me to say I'm okay. We made it this far and I know that we can fix it by telling the words left unspoken and making things clear. I don't regret a thing. Believe His plan, this is just our beggining.

I'm sorry.

And today, I'm officially missing you.