It doesn't matter how hard I try
I can't lose the ones who need losing.
I am not sure god hears me.
Because this pain isn't going away.

I just want my mind to lay still
So I can breathe and sleep.
I am fed up of dying and crying.
My heart can't take the beating.

I am tired of pretending everything
Is fine when it's not.
I'm just trying to remember how to
Smile for awhile.

There's no going back to the way
I use to be that hurts even more.