I lay sleepless
Thinking about my lie
“I said no”.... I said nothing… I let it happen.

Society has taught me that saying nothing and saying no are two different things.

I lay sleepless
Maybe this changes everything
Maybe it changes nothing.
Why’d I lie?

I said nothing,
Not yes
Not no

I laid on him and cried after,
Lifeless
He thought I was sad to leave him

But in reality, I was mourning the loss of apart of my soul.
a part of me, I will never get back.