starving for months
skin and bones
I was beautiful
and they ruined me

they put me in a gown
cuffed me to a bed
shoved a tube down my throat
needles in my arms

I was told I wasn't sane
but I knew what I was doing
I was dying to be pretty
and I was, but then

one day, I passed out
and wouldn't wake up
they took me in an ambulance
and told me I would die

I said I didn't care
I don't want to be ugly