Feb 2013
1 year
365 days
I found an old email chain dated exactly that far back
From today.
For some reason you still manage to creep up into my day
Somehow it still hurts me too.
But in less than an hour it'll be tomorrow
And then the next day as follows.
Eventually ending up at the day that you made up your mind
As much as it hurt,
I can barely remember.
I remember where I was,
How I broke down,
How I cried over you...
But not what you said.
And why my eyes tear up this night I'll never understand.
Or why you did as you did;
Ending it without any explanation.
But that you did.
Yet reading our conversation,
From that day one year ago,
I never would have guessed...
And I didn't.
365 days
I found an old email chain dated exactly that far back
From today.
For some reason you still manage to creep up into my day
Somehow it still hurts me too.
But in less than an hour it'll be tomorrow
And then the next day as follows.
Eventually ending up at the day that you made up your mind
As much as it hurt,
I can barely remember.
I remember where I was,
How I broke down,
How I cried over you...
But not what you said.
And why my eyes tear up this night I'll never understand.
Or why you did as you did;
Ending it without any explanation.
But that you did.
Yet reading our conversation,
From that day one year ago,
I never would have guessed...
And I didn't.
Pathetic that I think of her still, for it really wasn't much...but my mom asked about her the other day and that brought back some memories that I'd attempted to keep hidden.
Tonight I was going through my emails and I remembered that it auto saves IMs. So I looked and sure enough some of our conversations were still there. I read a few and saw how truly unexpected the end was. And then I noticed the date.
For some reason, knowing that it was exactly one year ago, just made the hurt so much worse.
Tonight I was going through my emails and I remembered that it auto saves IMs. So I looked and sure enough some of our conversations were still there. I read a few and saw how truly unexpected the end was. And then I noticed the date.
For some reason, knowing that it was exactly one year ago, just made the hurt so much worse.
