That summer you left
The ripples coming out of my eyes
Turned into waves.
That fall
My body fell like the leaves
Begging your ghost to stay.
And in winter
My pillows kept me company
And instead of your arms
My blankets kept me warm
On cold nights
When even the christmas lights
Were blincing for my darkness engulfed self.
This spring
I am cleaning
I’m throwing out your clothes
Washing those sheets that still smell like you
I’m buying new perfume
So you don’t know it’s me
When i casually pass by you.
I’m cleansing myself
Of all things you left in me
And around me.
This summer
I want to go surfing
Instead of trying not to drown in my own waves
I want to breathe
I want to live