I don't sleep anymore
Instead I stay up thinking
Of the many ways I could
Have made you stay

Instead I think about
How many times you
Said you loved me
And how they were all lies

Instead I think about how
I wasn't good enough
And I never will be
Not for anyone

I just want to matter again
I want to matter like how
I use to for you
I use to mean something

And right now meaning anything
Would make me feel alive
Would make me feel something

It's so lonely here
It's so quiet