****** my cerebrum,
intruding upon my thoughts, my world,
my very being,
turning me into someone unrecognizable
at least, internally.
for how long can i hide the monster?
for how long does he hibernate?
waiting for me to finally give in to my lust,
for my own apocalypse
right before my very eyes.
i just want to ******* feel something real!
i
finally
realize
i have embodied it.
the monster
is
me.