rainy days with hot chocolate
curled up on the bed
a mess of blankets and pillows
with my head on your chest
and your arms around me
I know I'm cared for

busy days bustling by
quick kisses of 'hi' and 'goodbye'
morning coffees
evening night in
with take outs and chick flicks
I know I'm secured

quiet Sunday mornings
lazy day, pajama days
week-long hustles
Friday fun days
sweet, crazy Saturdays
every single day with you
I know I'm loved

and yet
the movie nights with take outs
became movie night and take out without me
the lazy days in sweats with pizzas
became lazy days without me
the everyday, lovely day
became every day without me

it's not that you're deeply flawed
or you're never enough
it's not that you're not worth everything
or that you're the not best love anyone could ever ask for
because it's quite the opposite really

it's because your love is so profound
so warm and perfect
it does not deserve to be given
to some half-assed complicated mess
with chips and scratches and broken parts

its because you deserve the best
you should want the best
and you will find that someone
but it isn't gonna be me