these words trapped in my throat each passing second more and more times they fold over I can't even call you by your name anymore I wish we were different I wish you were different this shouldn't be a chore you shouldn't be above me I can't forget how I'm feeling break please leave me I don't want to be the villain the love I feel for you isn't what it was these warm rays have turned into scorching heat you burned away at my psyche and I'm the shell of the past me but I want to love you I want to shelter you away from yourself but I cant fix this you refuse to change don't get me wrong I still love you as a person but I don't love who you are with me insecurities swallow you whole and you're trying to take me with you I cant go too I've fought too hard to not go I want to break up
why is trying to break up so hard when you still care deeply for the person?