it’s valentine’s day
and i can’t help but think about what you’re doing, with her
i ended up signing into your music app
to mourn
not expecting to come across that you’ve been listening to our breakup playlist
after listening to those songs, the same songs i’ve been listening to for months
scenarios swarm my mind
possibly you’re having problems in your new relationship
maybe i have a chance
but i remind myself that you could just be listening to music
because frankly, your music taste is beyond words
like the song about caged birds, it’s really about how you had to find yourself after we ended things
then there’s the one about how i never took the time to hear you out
appreciate your love for me
which is true
these songs have so much pain and are so passionate
every day that i listen to them it’s as if someone is stabbing me
just like when i drive over the patch in the road from our first date
my heart stops
when i pass the place downtown where we would ride bikes
i cant breathe
but now you’re a free bird
you’ve found yourself since me
flying high in the sky above clouds of smoke
definitely not thinking about me
especially the way i think about you
the way i’ve thought about you these past 259 days
and will probably think about you for even longer
all i can do is wait
my timing was poor, i was oblivious to the love you felt for me and didn’t fight hard enough when we tried to fix things
so you thought i didn’t care
but i’ve listened to your songs every single day
the ones you’re starting to listen to again
and now i wish to know
if you’re possibly wondering about what i’m doing today
happy valentine’s day, my dear