It Feels Like .....
02/11/2019

I am in an eternal war
I cannot afford to lose
To surrender will be so easy
All I have to do is agree
To become HIS slave
It's not easy to survive
HE won't let me be
Let me pay it down
Even when I am holding all the aces
I can't win the hand
HE has stacked the cards against me
I keep telling myself, stay strong
You don't have many more years left
It can't be much longer
Just over the next hill
Around the next bend
When does this one end
If HE will only show me
If I could just envision
The cause of this existence
If I have the end in sight
Maybe, just maybe
I could bear it to the end


If paying forward
Next one shouldn't be so bad
Will still have to pay
For the deeds of this life, knowing
There will be some trying times ahead
For the past I won't recall
Even when one knows the reason why
It doesn't make it any easier
The only pacification to this existence
Are measured actions, reactions and interactions