I'm sorry
that the way you looked at me
made me like you
from the very beginning.
I'm sorry that he was in the back
of my mind when you touched
my back so softly.
I'm sorry that i was too stubborn
too afraid
too stupid
to see everything you were,
everything you could be.
I'm sorry for that night that i can't take back,
the 15 minutes in the bathroom
that i wish i could erase.
I'm sorry for being the kind
of person who could just
fall out of
love
and then fall into a new love
with you.
I'm sorry that i couldn't
admit that  
i love you
until it was too late.
and I'm sorry that i still haven't stopped
trying to win you back
and keep causing you
so much
pain.

But most of all
I'm sorry
for thinking of new things
to be sorry for

every single day.