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Finn
Poems
Feb 2019
Here
I'm here
Here
Laying in this
Bed
Unable to get
Up and out
Of it
No
There is nothing wrong
With me
Not physically
But I would
Rather lay here
And cry
Then get up
And face everything
Do you
Understand
Or am I
Just a
Madman?
My chest feels
Heavy
Empty
Hurt
And I have
No idea why
My poems
Don't even seem
Like poems
Just thoughts
Turned to words
Spaced oddly
Oddly enough to
Call it a
Poem
Does any of it
Even matter?
I am
Afraid
But I've been here
Like this
Before
But last time
This hurt
This pain turned
Into numbness
Apathy
And this pain
Means I'm alive
I'm here
I'm fighting
Even if it
Doesn't look it
The pain means I'm alive
The pain means that I can
Mend
Become whole again
So does it make me
A sick person
Or even a
******* if
I say that I
Wake up
Every morning
Looking for this
For this pain
Just to reassure myself that
I am alive
I am human
I'm still trying
I'm still here
That I am no longer numb
And pain
Means progress
So I lay here
Feel this pain
Shed some tears
And force myself
Up
Up and out of this bed
To begin the day
Even if it is
The afternoon already
I get up
Pull on some clothes
And greet the day
Saying
"I haven't given up yet"
And that this
*****
That's weighing me down
Will not get its way
No sir
Not today
#here
Written by
Finn
17/Transmasculine/MI
(17/Transmasculine/MI)
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