How do I tell you
that I need you

your smile,
your laugh,
your arms to hold me tight
when I say I’m not alright,
your words to keep me upright,
even when we stay up so late
we can finally see the sunlight
emerge from the darkness of the night

Your love.
I crave you, yet
I can’t have you
and it ruins me
like poison working it’s way
to my bloodstream.
Your love.
I crave you yet,
I don’t believe you desire me in your life..

But maybe the problem is with me?
Because I will never believe that I could be good enough
for someone
so kind,
so smart,
so mesmerizing.

So who am I
to deserve you?
I’m afraid to
hold you tight,
when you say you’re not alright,
my words won’t keep you upright
even when we stay up so late
we can see the sunlight
emerge from the darkness of the night.

I’m starting to believe
I am the poison
that’s working it’s way to my bloodstream.
My words and thoughts are the ones killing me,
and I don’t want them to ruin you too.