i am more than myself. the sum of my parts; brain, liver, heart only make up a fraction of what exists within this body. would i understand this better without the prison of thought? would i feel more without glands and adrenaline, or less? i dont ever 'believe' anything. instead, i 'know'.
two.
there are colours we can't see, a whole world is hidden to me, yet my father still believes i am insane when i tell him about the universe. universes. we can't prove we're the only one. the world i was born into is a prison; why was i born here? why was i born me?
three.
why do we like some rhythms better than others? i only had two things to list, but two is a bad number. why do we sleep? because we get sleepy, but why? i feel like a five year old searching for answers that no one has. but nine billion people in the world... chances are someone has to know, right?
sometimes i get depressed and existential and my dad makes me justify why i believe in a soul. i think we can answer every one of the 'whys', but only if we ask them in the first place. science and spiritualism arent enemies.