Make it easier on me
At least take the pain away
All I have is a memory
And I fear it's here to stay

I remember you lying there
Your favorite floral dress cut up the middle leaving your chest bare
I knew they needed an opening to use the chest paddles and yell, "Clear!"

But I couldn't help thinking How could they dare?!
Leave her lying there,
In the open air,
Wearing nothing but her underwear?!

And her eyes were open...
Blink... ... BLINK!
Just tell me you're joking
I'll forgive you, I promise! I won't sit around moping
I'm wishing, begging, praying, hoping...

This is all your fault! Why couldn't you just stay?!
I was just sixteen, It was mean to leave that way
Especially when I had so much I never got to say...

Like "I'm sorry I stuck my fingers in your homemade Thanksgiving pie"
And "I'm sorry that I broke your T.V. and told you a lie"
"I'm sorry I faked sick just to stay out of school"
"I'm sorry I said '****' in front of you once because I thought it was cool"

"... ... ... I'm sorry I didn't sing at your funeral when it was all you really requested...
But afraid it wouldn't be perfected,
Your one request rejected,
I choked.
And by my own cowardice, I was bested"

So many memories and regrets swirling in my head...

"I Love You Mommy..."
That's what I should have said...