Felt like dying today
I've just been surviving these days
But still anxious to see what
Tomorrow holds
As the day unfolds
I fail to understand my course
How i wish i was a rose
Just to know how it feels
To be adored sand loved
Even if it's just for a while
Even though the rose often wilts
It once felt wanted at least
I envy the molds and yeast
Always ****** and despised
But had a fair share
On crumbs of wheat
Sometimes i just sit
Painfully staring at my wrist
I want to, but fear
To let them bleed out
I am a misfit
The *******
My life is a cliffs
How do i shift
When I'm always blocked by reefs
I'm holding on to a small leaf
My position is at a balance
I fear i might fall deep
Never to see the surface again

Akwana Wa Odera
@therealakwana
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