She doesn't want me,
keeps the cauldron
barely boiling
while I wear her
short leash,
knowing
it is not healthy.

Thus, I decide
I won't settle down
and stick around
in her life,
because  
I am not
the settling down
type.

So, I don't
understand why
I get jealous
when she
talks about
the other guys.

I didn't get
an invite
to my
high school
reunion,

but that's alright
high school
was a rough time
in my life.

So, why
am I
but hurt?

I say
I don't want to
live or write that way.
I don't do it
for the money or the fame.

So, why does
it cause me pain
to see less gifted
writers get it
when I tried to deny
any desire
but self-improvement?