I stare at the page
dreading the graphite
hating the outline
the color
the face

Hating everything I do
I can't stop it
I can't like it
it's stupid

You say I'll make it big
that I'll be famous one day
that I'll get the equipment

But I despise it
my art is so dull
so unbearably bland
who would want this art
the art on my blank page?

You say I'm fine
just the way I am
just the way I smile and talk and laugh
lights up your day

but I think you're a liar
you hate me
you hate being around me
you hate everything I do

And you say I need food
Ha!
'Eat' I don't need to eat
I don't need food
I don't deserve food

I stare at the page
with a smile on my face
tears glinting in my eyes
hating that you still
believe
in me.