For the first time, I was happy.

Overflowing with joy your heart fought for mine when there were demons I could no longer destroy. You saved me even though you too were just another little boy.

For the first time I could see the light.

You showed ma a future, and I was in it! It was so bright. And the things I wanted, the things I needed. they weren't as far out of sight.

For the first time I was curious.

You made me wonder when I no longer saw adventure in this life, you made me wonder even when all my pleasure turned to strife.

Your smile made me warm, the heat in my stomach was enough to deteriorate any of my crooked thoughts that tried to reform. Your smile made me able to stand up to any threatening storm, unashamed of anything in me that wasn't uniform

But your words made me flee.


For the 100th time I ran.

You made me feel things I've always wanted to feel.
You made me see things that I never knew I wanted to see.
You made me wonder things I wish I could still wonder.
You made me love someone I didn't know I was capable of loving

and you made me flee from the only thing I have ever been able to explain.