Somewhere the wiring is crossed
Neurons fire haplessly
Patterns emerge in the chaos
The strongest survive
Again I search for sleep but
The thoughts descend on me like a pack of wolves
**** yourself
Put your hand in the fire and don't pull it out
Concentrate on the pain and you will feel it blossom
It would be so easy
To slip into the endless chain of reincarnation
It seems simple almost childish
To exit this shell
No longer fighting against the current of the river
I gaze at my own face in the mirror
Blind rage and a tear falls from my eye
The monsters gaze back at me
I am a ***** for your acceptance
As if any strangers positive opinion would validate my life
Tonight one last dream
Of your hands white in the moonlight
Soft upon my face
The caress of your voice will keep me from blood
The smell of rain soaked pine needles
I would live here forever with you
No longer sickened by the constant spin of the universe