i am no Stranger to Fear
that which adhere's
to Love,

as if in Disguise
it Preys,
wait's till the Weak
lags behind.
then through courage Seeks,
and easily finds.

Love is everywhere,
flowing around,
matching the Frequencies
our Emotions' sound.

Meaning:
all forms of Expression,
Reaction, and
Passion can be,

in me
i have found
no solid ground.

always Floating,
Flying, and
Dreaming.

Imagination creating
a most serene setting
i fall into Believing.

Deceiving it is.
so i easily give in.

Temptation of Escape,
the comfort holds my hand
to guide me through the land
of possible Truth,

but Fear becomes out of Doubt
and overpowers.

Trust,
Communication,
and Understanding,
can not be

shared by one whom invites,
welcomes,
embodies,
Fear.

when one weight falls,
the Balance enthralls
Chaos into Dimension.

Nothing is the same,
it's all Abstract.
the lashings and arguments quickly Attack.

his Desire for me was Selfishly shown
through the Monuments built on our Love's Tomb.

no longer Love,
but Want,
kept his Soul aflame.

to keep what was his right to Tame.
my Fire Inside.

i could not walk,
stand,
or crawl.

i knew he Loved me,
and that was All.
but this was not Love.

this was Secret and a Blind
transformation to quick to be seen
by me or Time.

..or was it there all along,
waiting to come out and play his melancholy song?
this body,
his Vessel,
was a host of Confusion.

as if maid Mary to Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde,
it took all my Energy to Try,
but Why?

i Loved him,
but it was no longer Him in control,
Madness had finally taken it's toll.

"throw me under a bridge," last words of a troll.

Sorry my Man,
my Lover,
my Friend,
seems Fear got the best of You
in the End.

go down with the ship,
i'd rather not,
my Mind is too Free to be Caught.
i did not give up,
i did not run.
I simply did what had to be done
Body and Soul lay peacefully as one.
my Fear of You
is finally gone.