I'm able to create my own "religion" in my head, where I keep myself in these "rooms" where I can't leave the darkness and enter into the light. The hardest thing we'll ever do is let God love us. For a reason I do not know, I don't let God love me, and instead I choose to dwell in the darkness. But no matter how mang times I neglect God's love, He will still love me and He won't let up off His relentless pursuit for me. I don't understand it, I don't deserve it, but I am thankful for it, and I sure do want it.