there are so many drafts of this hidden away, even from my own eyes. the eighteenth will be one year. i miss you. i've been trying to come up with words to put how i'm feeling but i can't do it. i miss you, that's all i can say. i promised you i'd stay and i'm here. i miss you and one day, we will be in each others arms again. save a seat up there for me. i will forever love you. i miss you.
i would trade anything to be up there with you, j. i love and miss you dearly.