some slash their wrist, ingest a bottle of pills, jump off a high rise building, hang themselves, or blow their brain off. and in that moment, when they are bleeding to death, closing their eyes for the last time, hanging loose in the air, about to let their weight drop and let that bullet pierce through their skull are moments, they fell the most alive maybe suicide is meant for that so very "special moment", to feel alive just once before you cease to exist