i wish you were dead
so we could mourn your loss,
and i wouldn't have to worry who
you were comforting.

i wish you were dead
so i could know
where you are and
that you love me still.

i wish you were dead
so i don't have to see you
smiling
for someone else.

i wish you were dead
so i could love him
without seeing the tears well
in your puppy-dog gaze.

i wish you were dead
so november would stop being
poison
to my future.

i wish you were dead
so i could finally stop
loving you
and i can stop crying.

i wish you were dead
so your face could fade from our memory,
so i could be free of this mass,
so i could lay us to rest.

that is why i wish you were dead.