Firstly, all I saw
is long flaming locks,
as I locked my lazar sights
on a woman tonight.

Then I moved in
with such a lack
of confidence
that even I
don’t know why
I bothered to try.

Secondly,
I observed,
overhearing
a fascinating
conversation.

Then,
despite the delight
and amazement
I did not
cave in
and go back walking
to satisfy
my guy
urges.

Instead,
I went home
and imagined
a more satisfying
conclusion.

In my what if world
we had a deep
and intriguing
conversation,
as she weighed in
on current issues
and then listened
to my perspective,
as we discussed
art and empathy.

In my what if world
she was as fascinated by me
as I was she,

but alas reality
saw me to sleep
alone.