My life has changed dramatically recently
All I wanted was to succeed, achieve and make my family proud of me
I never asked for anything other than to be loved and to love others
but every event showed me how this world is so cruel and loveless
I let myself down disappointed in my own ability
To mess up my life so very quickly
Build walls shut everyone out because I’m to embarrassed to let anyone in
If anyone can save me it’s him
But he saw sense, he’s gone now too
Just me, myself and I with my ****** up mind but even that’s left  
Oh, where is my mind?

My life has changed dramatically recently
Cigarettes Joni Mitchell songs bleeding heart a dozen spliffs ****** up mind and red wine
Maybe I need this
I need to be destructive for once in my life so if anyone is looking for my sensibility she jumped off a bridge on the freeway because she was tired of the pressure from everyday
The burden of being strong for a dysfunctional family when they couldn’t be strong for you
So you are left with only you but you can’t stand yourself
Pass that joint, rack me up a line, burn a cigarette my way and feed me wine
Oh, where is my mind?

My life has changed dramatically recently oh how will I make it through?
I’m punching holes through walls watching my inner castle fall
Smoking beers why am I here?
Pick me up from the floor can’t walk anymore where is the door? Jesus I’m such a *****
Shunned all hope shoot up the dope spark up a cigarette drinking for weeks straight oh I think I might die I wanna go home
Passing out in strangers cars covered in bruises and my own scars
My smile is gone I’m not even holding on driving myself insane what is my name? It was fun when I was 23 snorting Mandy in your front seat but I’m older now and I knew you never loved me, leaving me to walk home in the cold aimlessly
Looking for love in the wrong places with distorted faces