I've been reading books Trying to adopt and take on new things Sometimes I honestly can't ******* stand The casual and boring nature Of modern romance.
Yawn yawn yawn yawn yawn yawn yawn yawn I remember when there was a time Where I said out loud to my ******* friends Like some little girl speaking of her prince charming "I think he's in Chicago.." Like I could predict the future Like I had any kind of inkling What the **** I was doing And making of love.
But it got me here It brought me like a blonde flame Up and out of that cab With all my bags My hair big with a streak of green Like I was gonna ******' take over everything And I kinda did And have.
It never really feels like enough As I let down several layers of **** I've hidden behind I get to tired and just want to speak the truth.
A mentor and teacher said to me today When I told her how good I see her as being That she feels that way when she looks at me too. I said I didn't feel it She said she didn't either She feels like a mess inside.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for now I wish that I felt happier on the days Where I talked to no man But I guess I'm still working on that.