Why are you packing?
Are we moving again?
What am I going to do? I just made new friends
Okay so were aren’t moving then a family vacation?
The school year just started we can’t miss that many days dude
So you’re going this trip alone?
How that sound partna?
Stop joking around and you better unpack that playstation
He didn’t have a car so he must have took the train station

I was seven years old with no clue what divorce was
But even now while I’m 20 I still feel what divorce does

I wish I was there when he was getting ready to leave but he left before anyone came home
Even though it was my mom and my two older brothers and me he left us all alone

I’m asking my mom where did he go when is he coming back?
It had to **** her daily hearing me ask that

Where did he go?

Was it something I did wrong?
Is he still alive or are we the ones dead to him?

I never got any answers
I figured it was because I was six years old
But no one ever got answers

Jordan was attached to his hip he had to have told him something … Nah?

Ok Dallas his first born my oldest brother it has to be in his birth right to some information like this … Negative !

Now definitely my mom is older than him she should know something or saw it coming but she thought she would have too

One beyond selfish person destroyed a pretty cool family of five

And I thought everything was fine

Until about five and that after school program couldn’t keep this little kid from missing his dad only to realize that anticipation will only leave you sad

Only to forget that rule a few years later every time he said he was picking me and my brothers up and never seem to have stopped by my house to let us in the car

It’s not like we ever moved so I know he has the address

He tried to teach my brothers and I karate he taught us how to block “every single blow”

I’m still waiting for the lesson to block the devastating blow to the heart that he delivered  

I want my lesson where did you go?