im sorry guys, but this may be my last goodbye. my mind cant fight anymore. my body is starting to fall apart too. what am i supposed to do? im just tired. but my mind can't rest. my family wants me alive and to thrive, but i don't know how. im so sorry to everyone. i don't even know who will read this or care. but im tired of this and don't know what to do anymore. maybe ill text a hotline or something idk its the same thing everytime. i go to the hospital, and they treat my wounds, and admitt me to the psych ward, and i fake it till they let m go home. what do i do? everyone just says keep fighting and it will get better. i have my blades, and i have my ways. why do i have to stay? i know why i should stay but... idk