Nature used to make me happy
I was sitting there in the grass
The sun shining on me
Making my skin warm and my hair shine
I watched insects make circles around plants
and I watched a baby mouse run through the yard
When do you get to see that?
A baby mouse in the yard the same time you're there
That's the kind of thing that make me happy
The little things like that
And I love the sun
The sun is my best friend
It's inside me
I think the sun is burning out
That is so unfathomable, right?
The sun burning out
Well, now you know what it's like to be me
The word "depression" was banned from this dictionary long ago
I replaced it with happiness
But I think someone is trying to put it in again
I used to feel at peace with myself
when I'm sitting in a place like that
And I was
I was at peace
But this time there was a bit of pain hidden underneath
I could feel it
Where did it come from?
It's not supposed to be this way
I can't go through this again
I don't know what's wrong
I don't think I'm strong enough to fight this right now
Oh God help me