Gazing up at the sky with that stupid grin on my face Radiant with undisguised joy I said Thank you for hanging out with me. I didn’t mean that Not exactly And I don’t believe you think I did- I think you saw through me Completely. You looked at me sidelong And I blushed, Having just seen Forests and deserts and oceans in your eyes Having just seen the world all wrapped up in a person Looking at me And been Overwhelmed.
See?- I can’t just say What I mean.
Especially not when what I mean is Thank you For ever being near me in this world. Thank you for the nights I’ve given up sleep To sit and watch the light seep through my curtains, lost in the strange beauty of your dreams and thoughts and ideas. Thank you for your art That digs its way into my heart and takes root there Making me vibrant inside. Thank you for those times I’ve spent Happily close to you The warmth like sunlight that spreads through me whenever I see you. Thank you for the beauty I notice in the world When I think about you- The broken glass on my street Suddenly like fallen stars. The little weeds that push valiantly up through the cracks Like mighty trees. The lights spilling over the pavement Like dawn. Thank you for The chance to feel Alive. Thank you for knowing me. Thank you for letting me in. Thank you for letting me in even though you know me. Thank you for the image of an odd, smart, wonderful little kid Asking mom what color her A was. Thank you for the tenderness that brought to my heart. Thank you for your stories and your courage and your wit. Thank you for looking at me with gentleness. Thank you for giving me some of your time. Thank you for your passions, your dark, angry moments, The beautiful, bitter hurt you carry inside of you and let me witness like a storm at sea But always shelter me from being touched by. Thank you for being the kind of person Who struggles to understand being loved But does not rage against it. Thank you for being kind. Thank you for being complicated. Thank you for being strong, and insightful, and wicked, and bold. Thank you for hoping I’ll be happy. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for the moments when I can look at your face in full Its captivating beauty The little thoughts that pass across it like clouds across the sky Mischief and vulnerability and laughter and pain all mingling in your eyes. When I look at you like that I feel like I might belong somewhere someday. Thank you for being sarcastic, and humble, and sweet, all at once, all the time.
The truth is that when I said thank you for hanging out with me, I really meant Thank you For being. I meant thank you, thank you, thank you For ever being born.