DISCLAIMER: EATING DISORDER/SELF HARM
wow i am upset to my stomach
the image of me forcibly shoving
my index finger
and my
                                                     middle
finger
joinedbytheknuckles
d
o
w
n
my throat
washes
over
me
over
and
over
again..
that i just might do it.
this is no cry for help
its the demon in me testing to see if i am ballsy enough for one last try
versus
the voice of my therapist saying i will ruin my entire recovery if i do this.