I was born broken synapses misconnected only rerouted by the additives from chemicals sometimes misspoken Now I'm shattered and the only one who can fault is that face in my mirror I say it was the man who's namesake took on Goliath
like Goliath, he ravaged me and made me question question who every one else saw in the mirror but it's not his fault that I've changed I let him start the film the rated R film in my brain that won't leave me be in day and in night I scream you idiot, idiot, idiot why? why? why? every time I let it happen and wonder after panting and crying what happened what happened to Disney Movies, and Saturday shows to happy sing-a-longs and family scriptures traveling across the ocean to my hawa'ii to find my ohana thinking to capture back old lost spirits idiot, idiot, idiot why?why? why? I look up at Him I'm weak your Mary has become a beggar sainthood is gone an angel has fallen and wings have shattered now to the next day will I ask again, why did I do it again? or am I free to live again?