I feel so alone.
I thought loneliness and I were well acquainted.
We've even shared secret handshakes.
Growing older i've become even more desolate.
That's my fault.
Isolated in my head.
separation
                   from
self
don't want her back.
Looking for a new Alyssa
one who doesn't smoke so much
one who doesn't seek comfort from others.
One who is fundamentally happy.
the
Unattainable.