I had a dream where i was laying next to you,
your eyes were closed but you weren't sleeping.
I don't know how i knew that, because my eyes were closed too
--or it was pitch black--
and my hand was on your chest
and i could feel your heart beat
and there was no sound beside
     your wondrous breathing
           and the lub-dub of blood streaming.
everything was peaceful....


Then i woke up, and my hand was just resting on a pillow
and there were many sounds
a cement truck, a garbage truck,
someone coughing then spitting
a car horn.
My heart was pumping slow and i felt like a rock
at the bottom of the ocean

and i waited for you to come home.