In my mind, I must walk Alone and scared, I can not talk About the crash that killed a kid I tried to help, I really did First on scene of that terrible sight I cant forget that awful night. People scream and yell at me he's in the car, cant you see The car is fully engulfed in flame They curse at me, and me they blame In my mind I know he's gone But where's the driver, I must move on I search the faces with the fires light I yell above the horrific sight Where's the driver is he alright They point up ahead towards the road He's lying there, injured I'm told I take to running up the hill I know I'm moving , yet feel so still My lungs are burning, my heart pounds hard Of that night , my mind is scarred I reach the driver, in pain he lays Go help my buddy is all he can say Unable to tell him the awful truth for he still too is just a youth His clothes are burnt into his skin My tears start falling deep within The ambulance is here , to my relief Their time on scene is short and brief I help them care and load this man I try to help, I hold his hand In my mind, I must walk Alone and scared, I can not talk About the crash that killed a kid I tried to help, I really did
written by E.M.Rushton 2016
This fire call had left scared and now I am seeking help for what may be PTSD. Of my career in firefighting , this was the hardest call .