"Until then I try to smile and hide the truth."

Sad in the corner of the room,
Every flowers in here will not bloom,
Darkness that stayed all along,
I can see myself crying alone.

Mirror that reflects everything,
I don't have anything,
Empty rooms and empty tables,
Where do I belong?,
Simple question who had a simple answer, Trash Bin.

Telling myself that one day I'll be happy,
No one deserves me,
Even I myself don't deserve this life.

Where would this path will lead me,
Would it be dead end?,
Or would it be a place full of thorns.

Too much curiosity that lead me to death,
When would this pain will end,
I know that there's no end,
As long as I'm alive there would be no end,
Unless if I think of a best way to end the pain.

**** Myself.

Perfect timing,
You saw me hanging,
Blood of mine that made a stain to your shirt.

You can't save me,
Your too late,
Too late to apologize,
You don't have the rights to cry at my funeral without knowing my pain.

You don't even know who I am,
How can you pity me,
If you can't even pity yourself,
You don't have the rights to have some pity on me if you don't even know who I am.

You didn't notice my pain,
You didn't notice the fake smiles that I always did,
You didn't notice my teary eyes,
You didn't notice my existence,
You didn't notice my letter,
You didn't read my personality,
Who are you to cry and pity me.

Get away from me,
Get away from my funeral,
Please leave me alone just like what you've been doing all the time,
Please let me be alone until I die.

Don't put some flowers on my grave,
Flowers won't do,
If you feel sorry,
Then why?, why you didn't notice it,
Why you didn't comfort me,
Why did you let me to be all alone,
Why did you let me to cry.

Who are you to make me feel this way?