Oct 2018
when i say,
i want to die
it doesn’t mean
that i want to
end my existence.
what i mean is,
i want all this
repressed feelings,
toxicity,
loneliness,
and other things that
makes me struggle
to be happy again
to end.
maybe i just want to
live like before.
maybe i want to
feel alive again.
i want to die
it doesn’t mean
that i want to
end my existence.
what i mean is,
i want all this
repressed feelings,
toxicity,
loneliness,
and other things that
makes me struggle
to be happy again
to end.
maybe i just want to
live like before.
maybe i want to
feel alive again.
I feel like thinking this way is like infatuation, that sometime we're too pre-occupied of sadness and that we wish for things that we don't really want. It's the opposite of it that we want, and realizing it by now is just so sad.
