I've begun to question the very purpose of my existence. Which is really just a fancy way of saying ''I've been reading too much Albert Camus.''
The only way to enjoy one's life is to accept the Absurd. To accept that life has no meaning except for the meaning I give it. No purpose other than the purpose I wish it to have. Belief in God is absurd because there is no way to verify his existence. Belief in the absence of God is absurd because there is no way to verify it. Trying to believe anything spiritually is absurd because spirits are not science and anything that is not science cannot be verified and is therefore absurd. Life is absurd. The purpose of life is reproduction, survival. Or so it has been verified by science. Spiritually though, there is no purpose because everything is a purpose.