Choose this life? Never! Why would I want to argue with myself constantly? Making simple decisions is a heartbreaking task. To everyone else it is easy.........for me to get out of bed feels like a mistake. You know itβs tough when you do not want to wake up! All I want is to find the happiness or joy out of everything.........but all I can find is bleakness and grey! I just want to smile, but all I do is make everyone else happy..........then I have forgotten about me!