He wanted to leave, forget this moment but it kept circling back to him. He felt free other times this death grip on his throat making it hard to breathe. He learned right away it doesn't always happened right away even though he was one that was determined to make it happen. He was one to look out for other but when he needed them they were no where to be found. He was willing to help find a solution to the problem. He enjoyed helping others but they weren't to happy or fond of him because he was private and not one to put his business out there. Most criticized him or judged him for being different. Sobriety made life easier and more clear with good judgement he took on what he could handle and what mattered. Instead of complicating things or putting himself in awkward situations it felt like they came after him. He was not one to meddle in others business unless asked. He gave advice even though they did the opposite and went back to the stuff they said they'd never do again.