i go back and forth every couple of months performing my ritual dance of what ifs and i hopes
no matter what i do i always return to this ancestral place of insecurity and naivety
i'm tired of this war waged between my mind and my heart it's caused me to grow old and become someone who is tenfold my age
but time goes on and i'm still here performing the same dance perfecting it for the grand finale of when the vultures swoop in and tear the remains of my heart to shreds
i'm tired of this war i don't know how much more i can take the voices around me say to drop the rope, the game is done but i still find myself tugging with everything i have which is only a fragile wish for a future that may possibly never come