i know what you're thinking all the time and please slow down. the world feels like it's crashing and i don't know what to tell you except that this will pass too. i want to tell you to just think of the smell of mom, those random saturday mornings where you'd wake up to breakfast with your family. but i can't because i know that thaf won't make your heart full. and i'm sorry. for i know i contribute to these bad thoughts. we will be okay. i don't know that for sure. and i know you think or know that this, you, ends in death and maybe it will but it's okay even if that's the case. slow down, breathe.