Ginger ale Turkey, mustard, and mayonnaise sandwiches Lopsided smiles Blonde hair
Warning
I tore my family apart I tell myself I'm a dangerous girl Because I'm better at Russian Roulette than 21 questions I have stared down the barrel of a gun as the girl with brown hair stared back She doesn't look anything like me Maybe if I didn't look anything like me he won't be able to find me I dye my hair red It fades back to brown
Warning
"But how is it abuse if he never hit you?" they ask
Trigger Trigger warning
WWE and PS4's
"No one will believe you"
Warning I sleep with a baseball bat beside my bed and a gun in my closet, loaded
Warning "No one will love you after they find out what you've done"
Warning
I do not know my own triggers They are the way a stranger walks down the street or the way my lover holds me
I tore my family apart Because everything is a trigger Because I'm waiting for it to stop sounding like a lie
Trigger
Because I talked to people about it
Trigger
He sat on his bed Trigger Until he didn't Trigger
And I sat in my shower with the water melting my skin away because maybe if I sat there long enough his touch would go away Trigger
I need someone to watch me today to keep me away from knives Trigger and cars Trigger and men on the street who look like knives and cars
I don't like lying to people but when they ask me what's wrong I still give them the less gruesome version where a bad man hurt me
Warning
But sometimes I'd wish I'd told them that bad men can be your family Trigger That they can smile Trigger And laugh Trigger And swallow you whole and you will convince yourself that you asked him to
Molesters
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can't be convicted
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unless the victim
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has enough evidence
but how do you give evidence when you're living in fear Warning that he Trigger will come after you TRigger AND HE WILL DO IT AGAIN TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER PAUSE...
continue
How do you give evidence when it happened over a decade ago
How do you give evidence that he Trigger took your innocence Trigger and made it into a game of cat and mouse his image always chasing me every day every night
Warning
That he will **** me Trigger He will **** me HE WILL **** ME
PUT IT ON MY HEADSTONE SO THAT THEY CAN NEVER SAY THAT I DIDN'T SCREAM LOUD ENOUGH
GIVE THE PEOPLE OF THE JURY ZIPLOC BAGGIES AND TISSUES Loaded questions warning filling every vein in my body with hate as ammunition Trigger warning **** Trigger Tells me he knows ******* my family Trigger and take us all with him Trigger FIRE TRIGGER FIRE TRIGGER FIRE
Trigger
No warning shots
I have seen guns go off in front of my eyes but I still cannot shake the habit of looking down gun barrels of believing that I am gentle enough to touch the Trigger without pulling