I know am the one that got away
I know I have no right to talk to you
I know that probably you hate me
I know all this but still my rotting heart has me saying this

I've been thinking about you,missing you,
I've been writing to you but they are all drafted
I've been angry,messed up all the time I just can't let you go
I've been trying to move on but I just can't

You see my ears bleed red whenever our song plays
You see I wonder if you have already found "the one" again
You see I want to call you but am afraid of being a flotsam
You see am a ****** arena because my heart and brain are in war

Have you been looking at your phone hoping the next call is mine?
Have this 5 months we have been apart changed you  too?
Have you been waiting for me,like I have been hoping you have?
Have you been trying to reach out to me but been non-successful ?

It's naive for me to think positively,I burnt the bridge right?
It's wrong for me to wish that you are as miserable as I am,
It's wrong for me to say am sorry after 5 months of saying nothing,
It's even wrong for me to still hope that there might still be an us.

Wait,I know I hurt you by ghosting like that am sorry,
Wait have this 5 months also taken a toil on you,changed you?
Wait,if I call you if I tell you it's me how will you react?
Wait ugh, Why am I doing this I should just call you right?

Just know I still love you,no one has loved me like you do
Or should I say am sorry I left without a word
Have you been wishing I could just reach out to you?
No don't tell me if not,my rotting heart will fall